Well, Winter Break is over and Sierra went back to school today. In a way, it’s nice to get back into the routine of things (as much as there is ever a routine at our house). Things are still a little off because of Sierra’s wrecked finger, but we’re getting through it.
She was a bit anxious as she headed off this morning because she knew that everyone would ask about her hand and she doesn’t like attention like that. She’s a social kid, but she doesn’t like to stand out from the crowd. She’d never voluntarily participate in a play, for instance. This has always struck me as very interesting, because in reality she stands out and she doesn’t even know it.
She had her competitive swimming after school today, and when I went to the Rec Center to pick her up I chatted with her coach for a bit. Sierra stands out to her coach in ways that only a coach would notice. She stands out to the people watching, because of her physique (girl is ripped). She stands out to the people she swims with because she is so friendly, social, and encouraging. She stands out, but she doesn’t realize it because she’s not being MADE to stand out. Today her coach told me that she has never coached such a strong kid. She told me that she has never coached a kid so driven. We talked about Sierra’s dream of being in the Olympics, and she didn’t laugh or roll her eyes. She nodded.
I don’t know if Sierra will be in the Olympics. Her dreams may change, and that’s okay. I’m okay with that, as long as she is. But, when Sierra wants something, she makes it happen. When she says that she wants to go to the Olympics, I don’t doubt that she will, even though she’s only nine. Neither does her coach. These are not thought of as the idle dreams of childhood. With Sierra, it’s just different. She stands out.
I can’t wait to see what she does with her life, but I won’t write her dreams for her. I will give her every opportunity I feasibly can to help her find her path in this life, but really, I just want her to be happy. I want her to go to bed each night content with her lot in life. I want her to be able to smile every day, and laugh with her whole heart. I want her to sample everything and decide where it is and what it is that makes her heart truly sing. Maybe that makes me stand out as a parent, and maybe not. I don’t have much basis for comparison. But I know Sierra. She stands out because she is outstanding, and the very best part is that she doesn’t even know it.